Saturday, January 7, 2012

It's a new year! And a time to remind myself that it's never too late to dream! I decided the best way to accomplish new things is to set a goal of doing something creative every day. So far that has included painting a couple of ceramic pots and playing around in photoshop. Not sure if that qualifies, since what, in days past, took hours and days to create, now just takes a click of a button. But it's fun and good for the soul, anyway.

The last few months of this year were a time of change. It began with the "knowing" that I had to find a way to quit my second job. With the holidays coming up, my hours would get later and later, keeping me away from home until 10:00 or later the nights I worked. Just not acceptable. I knew I needed to be home. My heart was always torn when I was at work, wanting to be home, even though I enjoyed  my job and the creativity it involved. So, one day during a break, a rare quiet moment, I sat down and prayed. The verse that immediately popped into my mind was Proverbs 3:5-6. I knew my heart and spirit were deeply troubled by my dilemma and as I thought on these verses, I wasn't sure how to interpret them in my situation, but I began to feel my trust increasing. It was still based on faith in a result I couldn't see, but I was ready to trust that God was working.

My trust was tested in more than one situation at a time. My parents moved into an assisted living home in Tennessee, close to my brother's family. This was such a life changing experience for me and required TRUST in God working His plan in their lives, not mine.

And then, an opportunity showed itself, that I didn't even recognize at first, but then realized that this was my chance to quit my second job, budget out my resources, and TRUST! So, with trepidation. . . I did! And each day was filled with a trusting so real it seemed tangible. It still does. Just being. Being at home. Time at home. I have learned that time is money. Time has a value that money can't buy. This decision was life changing as well.

Shortly after this change, I was transferred to a different school. So, I've been learning how to work with different students with different challenges. Trying to TRUST that I'm where I belong at the moment.

Praying that through my attempt at creativity, I can find a way to support my spending more time at home.
Isn't it funny how even when it comes to doing the things we love, it requires discipline? So, that is my goal, to discipline myself daily, to do one thing I love!