This morning I took a walk. I didn't take the dog with me this time. It was cooler than it has been with an overcast sky. I could feel an occasional light sprinkle of rain on my face. My legs began to stretch out and use muscles they haven't used for a long time. As my arms began swinging to step up my pace, I began to feel stronger, and more confident. I breathed in deeply and felt free.
I thought about the verse in the bible that talks about not looking back, but keeping our eyes straight ahead. For the first time in a long time I feel that I'm able to do that. To look forward with hope and peace in my heart and the anticipation of wondering what God is going to lead me to.
I know these days are a gift. I even unplugged my alarm clock so when I'm in my room I have no idea what time it is. I can read as long as I want to before I go to sleep and I can sleep as long as I want to before I get up. After setting the alarm for 4:25 AM every workday for two years, it sure is nice. (Actually I do have a job fair tomorrow morning so I guess I'd better set it tonight). I'm enjoying my home so much more. My time with my kids isn't rushed. We're just enjoying being together.
In case this all sounds misleading, I think I'm working harder at finding a job than I ever did at my job. I'm exploring all kinds of ideas and I'm excited to see where God leads. I pray that I will listen carefully and hear Him.
"I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye"Psalm 32:8"
And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left."Isaiah 30:21
"In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."Proverbs 3:6